Autumn in your voice

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 I am 21 now.

I see so much autumn in your voice and rain in your eyes,
The August sky above me surrenders
And I feel a familiar ache.
It might have taken your smile


To bring my heart to knees.
In this distance between us, 



Physically and vocally
Because in the thought you are with me,
I have imagined telling you that,
That I watch that you exist,
Everyday,
And my heart fails to understand,
For once I have imagined this distance is not
Equal to this distance.
There is no way to say this.
Dead words come alive,
Those scribbled on paper,
Sometimes in life, you see, death is not what kills you. I can do nothing about it. I can feel dizzy about how this hurts. And there is no word for this feeling.

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