Memories and You

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 Ali sethi plays on loop in my head and I remember the way you used to smile, everytime before I go to bed.


Your humour, your giggles, the bittersweet clandestine memories we had, stir up and play like a movie in my head.

I rediscover the scent of flowers that you sent me and remember how you held my hand when the sky was dark , seems like it was few days ago.

I remember how I forced you to watch a stupid movie, just because I wanted to watch a movie


with you. I had made a to do list of things to do with you, but lately I forgot where I kept it. May be you took it or may be I missed it somewhere. Isnt it funny that someday somewhere someone will pick that list and do the mentioned things and create memories till the time they will come back to a day like this and they would pen it down.

I remember how you clicked my picture while I was sleeping with my mouth open and you laughed at me.

I remember how you cooked and asked that kadhai would have been there, you would have made the best Rajma.

I don't know if you remember any of this. May be you moved past it , may be you still remember. Who knows. Maybe's have all the answers.

I am a mere spectator of the series of event that drastically shook the life out of my life.

Well life has taught me to survive all alone in a barren city, cry on my own shoulder, to disappear, cry to sleep on nights and wake up every morning to face a world I never imagined. But I am trying my best , every single day.

Life teaches us always. I pray for you always , every night and every morning while passing the temple and the church. I think it is best for you to not know , you would never know any of this. Let's keep this to the writing only.

There is no person to whom I can say this so writing is my forever friend.

If something is complete you would forget it, I write and do things incompletely and keep coming back to them. Like unfinished business.

I hope my telepathic conversations reach you with the air , all they ever would ask for is your well being. That's it. Tell them that you are happy , always .

I have touched life and death quite closely and I am still strangling in between, and all I can say is that, I am thankful for you and everything that came in life.

I may dissapear into thin air but wherever I would be I will pray that you get all the happiness of this world. You are a good man, always remember that. Have no doubts about that.

Oye, Don't let me down. Your every thought reaches me. I know. Ok.

I know you know.
That is enough , isnt it?



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